2010. 30 years and here I am. Still. I'm done with school, and thankfully got through University. Though I do miss growing up. My mum loved me to bits as a child. That's what people also tell me. I believe them. (I do love you mum.) But they say that with age, comes wisdom. So I am the sum total of my past experiences. Scary. Yet oddly satisfying. We all look back, and see how our mistakes, choices and situations molded us into who and what we are today.
But there's no time for nostalgia. Looking back too long makes me melancholic. My past is exactly as it has shown me where I am today. But I did not go it alone. There were always people by the sidelines. We are never alone. Never be afraid to reach out. Most times, I try to find the connection.
I am finally beginning to realise that my life is not just about work. Overwhelmed would be an apt description. Work is merely a part of my life, so I better make my life something worth living for. As do other professionals in their field, I take my assignments seriously. Every job is yet another challenge. I've got nothing to prove, but a lot to learn. After all, isn't the only relevant race in life, relates to ourself? Sometimes living in the moment is all I can do to stay sane. I try not to take myself too seriously. I'm sometimes surprised at the status some people accord themselves with. Legends in their own minds. As Charlie Brown would say: "Good grief."
Whatever it is, some things never change. And one of those things is the fact that we all survive on a sub-conscious level, with the help of others. By their connection with us. And that is why relationships are something I want to learn to cultivate. As I grow older, I meet more and more different people. Some I leave alone, some fascinate me, some I can click with, most I have yet to decide upon.
My life, after all, will be like any other; it's all about choices. I guess all I can do is try to do the right thing. Though sometimes, that's different from doing the smart thing, these days. But enough of that, I shall endeavour to rise above the negative, and focus on what can progress my dealings. I can't allow myself to go through life scared and puny. Carpe diem may sound corny, but it must have some meaning as an age-old saying. Paying attention would be good. Like my friend Nina said one Saturday I followed her shoe-shopping: "I don't know what I want, but I'll know when I see it."
But there's no time for nostalgia. Looking back too long makes me melancholic. My past is exactly as it has shown me where I am today. But I did not go it alone. There were always people by the sidelines. We are never alone. Never be afraid to reach out. Most times, I try to find the connection.
I am finally beginning to realise that my life is not just about work. Overwhelmed would be an apt description. Work is merely a part of my life, so I better make my life something worth living for. As do other professionals in their field, I take my assignments seriously. Every job is yet another challenge. I've got nothing to prove, but a lot to learn. After all, isn't the only relevant race in life, relates to ourself? Sometimes living in the moment is all I can do to stay sane. I try not to take myself too seriously. I'm sometimes surprised at the status some people accord themselves with. Legends in their own minds. As Charlie Brown would say: "Good grief."
Whatever it is, some things never change. And one of those things is the fact that we all survive on a sub-conscious level, with the help of others. By their connection with us. And that is why relationships are something I want to learn to cultivate. As I grow older, I meet more and more different people. Some I leave alone, some fascinate me, some I can click with, most I have yet to decide upon.
My life, after all, will be like any other; it's all about choices. I guess all I can do is try to do the right thing. Though sometimes, that's different from doing the smart thing, these days. But enough of that, I shall endeavour to rise above the negative, and focus on what can progress my dealings. I can't allow myself to go through life scared and puny. Carpe diem may sound corny, but it must have some meaning as an age-old saying. Paying attention would be good. Like my friend Nina said one Saturday I followed her shoe-shopping: "I don't know what I want, but I'll know when I see it."
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